Chicago Trip! :D

AH! So Thursday my mom and I took a trip to Chicago to see the school I could potentially go to. SAIC (School of the Art Institute of Chicago). OH MY GOODNESS. This school was incredible. I've never been so excited about something school related like I am about this!! My mom and I took a tour of the main building(there are 7 buildings total) because that is where most of the fine arts classes are. GAH!! I fell madly in love with this place the second I walked in the door. And it just felt...right. Like I was supposed to be there. I didn't think I would ever find a place that I would absolutely LOVE but I did. The ONLY thing stopping me from going would be money. I just pray that it will all work out!! That's all I can do. But seriously this school is just awesome. It's right in the center of down town Chicago. I would have sooooo many opportunities through the school, like going to other countries..getting internships and other such things. I would always be inspired and would always have someone to talk to about my art! Ugh I looooved it. The dorm rooms were INSANELY cool as well, they had a kitchen(minus oven for safety reasons) with full sized fridge and everything. A full bathroom. Two big closets (one for each person living in the room. duh) and a loft area where you could put a bed or whatever you want. Plus they have a giant studio in the building so I can work there too! Needless to say...it was awesome.
I just felt right at home, and I love the fact that it's not tooooo far from Ft. Wayne..so I could come home whenever I wanted/needed :) It was such a fun trip to go on. I'm so lucky that I have my mom, we bonded and had a blast. Getting lost trying to find the train station, exploring down town Chicago, taking pictures, people watching, eating great food, then running to catch the train back, listening to drunk people on the train, eating at the applebees and finally making it home. ALL IN ONE DAY. So much fun! :D I love my mom.

Dear Diary...

Hhmmm... Well the past couple weeks have been quite the emotional roller coaster for me. And because of this I want to just lay in my bed and cry my heart out. But I haven't and I think instead it's coming out as grumpy :( I've been snippy and short with people which is very unusual for me. Things that normally annoy me but I keep my mouth shut about seem to annoy me 54times more now and I'm def letting people know it. NOT GOOD. I honestly think that most of it is lack of sleep...I don't sleep very well lately and I've been crazy busy the past couple weeks, so sleep is rare. And anyone who knows me knows that there are two things I need to keep me happy, nice and myself.. food(haha) and sleep. I'm good on food..its the latter that is lacking in my life. This is no excuse to be mean to people, I know. But I'm hoping I can just get it all out on here and be done with it. Get out of this stupid funk and be myself again. GAH. (deep breath..and go)
I don't understand....
When people have something that they truly do not deserve and do not appreciate!! Especially when there are people like me who deserve it and would appreciate it like non other! Why is it that I pray and hope that I have just an ounce of what they have but I never get it?! uugh. What am I doing wrong? I'm losing faith and its depressing me. (No, not like emo, gonna kill myself depressed so don't freak out!!) I'm just... lonely. Very lonely :(
Why people make sarcastic & mean comments and then laugh after every single one of them as if they are funny. They aren't!! They are just immature and annoying. I can usually deal with this and not let it get to me so much. But seriously..come on! Enough is enough.
How people can be so judgmental when they are supposed to be the ones that accept anyone how they are. No matter what! How they can be so nosy and get all up in other people's business, but when it comes to their own life they would throw a huge fit if anyone knew or talked about anything!

STROLLERS. >:(

I need a change. I don't know for sure what kind of change yet..but I know I need something to change.
I'm worried. I'm always worried. I worry that I won't make it in Art and I can't do anything else. I'm worry that I won't be able to pay for college if I get to one that I love. I'm worried that I am gonna be alone as soon as fall hits. I'm worried that I am never going to connect with my little sister and we'll never be close. I'm worried that when my job ends in Oct. I'm not gonna be able to get another one for months and I'm gonna get in a financial hole. I'm worried that my hamster is going to die soon and I'm gonna cry..even though I don't really care about animals.
=\

I'm gonna go watch Legion and paint my nails. Strollers tomorrow. Then movie's with Bek and Dee!! :D (that will be fun!)

This has probably been the most depressing blog post ever. I'm sorry.
(I do feel better now though. Thanks for letting me vent)

Hmmmm......

So, it's been awhile since I've blogged :( I miss it...I've just been crazzy busy with work and other such things. But I really am going to try and blog more during the summer! I promise. Well..let's see...

Work has been going great! I'm loving my car! I just colored my hair last night for the first time in awhile! And I'm in serious pain from doing races with my family? Haha. Well I don't really have a whole lot to talk about..mostly because I don't really have a life anymore(not that I've really ever had one. Ha) because all I do is wake up, go to work, come home, eat and then crash until the next day where I do the same thing. And on my days off..I'm sleeping. Haha but I'm still finding time for my best friends(duh) but other then that...I NEED to start working on my portfolio...OH! Speaking of that..I finally got more info on that school in Chicago..my mom and I are gonna go visit sometime soon! That will also help me figure out what needs to go into my portfolio. So I kinda don't want to work to hard right now, only to find out it won't even be going in my portfolio..ya know? anyway...Imma go..i've gotta babysit. I'll blog again soon..I hope!

Interesting emontions and contagious moods...

...are what surround me right now. I don't understand why I let one teeny tiny little thing bring me down... something as small as the way someone looks at me. Ugh. I don't know, on one hand I am extremely excited because some great things that have been happening in my life!! And then on the other hand..I'm blah. Just random moods here and there. One minute up and the next down. Not to extremes of course, I hardly ever let them show. They are undetectable unless allow them to be seen. So I'm not bipolar or anything. Haha I can usually work through whatever it is that is bothering me in a short time..so it's hardly ever a big deal. But sometimes certain things just really get to me..and stick with me a little longer than usual. I also hate how someones crappy mood can change my mood. Not everyone's can do this..only some. But then again..I'm okay with people's good moods making me feel better. ...Okay. I'm done talking about this. Moving on....

I'm driving the kids to Indy this Friday and after that I'm staying the night at Michelles!! Yay!! :D I miss her oh so very much. It will be very nice to see her!! I can't wait!!

Today was Karina's 12th birthday! I think she had a good time:) ...Cooper's 16th birthday is tomorrow..so I'll be eating lots of birthday cake for the next few days haha. OhmYgOodnEsS!

I had to do stupid strollers yesterday. ALL day long. I loooove my job. But HATE strollers. People were so grumpy and mean to me, I mean they were just completely rude. gaah. But then H and I chilled till like 1am last night..so that was good! :] ...And poor H had to be strollers today :'( I know how it feels..so she has my sympathy! Weeell. I'm gonna go. I have about 27 mix CD's that I've had since I was like 12 so I'm gonna listen to all of them and write down what is on each of them. Hahah fuuuun night. Okaybye.

CarsLongTalksInParkingLots&Besties

Oh my goodness. I just have SO much to talk about. I don't know where to begin?! Okay, let's just start with the good.... Well..I'M FINALLY GETTING A CAR!!!!!! Ah. Yes! I can not wait!! It's a very long story..but in a nutshell..I would not be able to do this if it weren't for some very amazing people in my life. I'm so incredibly grateful..words can not even express! I'm going car hunting tomorrow! I don't think I'm going to be able to sleep tonight...I'm just THAT excited. Like you don't even understand. I will most def be posting pics of my car when I get in. And I will have to come up with a name(that's a given). Tomorrow is basically going to be an awesome day! Car hunting..then hanging out with my bestie's (Iheartthem)

Today was a pretty much amazing day!
While I was at work today, I met a new co-worker.
Her name is Carly!
We were both doing cash and we totally got along right away!
And let me tell you.
We have SO much in common!!
It's just freaky.
Needless to say...we exchanged numbers.
Haha!
She's pretty cool!

And yesterday I got to spend most of the day with Alex! Which was nice because I haven't seen him in forever and I missed him much!! So all in all this week so far has been pretty amazing!! And this weekend is looking like its gonna be just as great! :]

Now. On to the not so good.
Well..there isn't really anything that has happened.
It's just..ugh.
You know those little tiny things that people say or do that just bug the crap out of you?
Well that's basically how I'm feeling.
I can't really tell you why I'm feeling this way..
well mostly because you'll think I'm crazy and childish.
But also because I don't really know how to put it into words.
I just hate these stupid little things that shouldn't bother me but for some reason..really do.
Goodness.
I'm being dumb.
Oh well..I'm still in a great mood because of my fantastic week! :]

Just a quick blog.

So...I'm just trying to pass the time because I don't have to leave for work

for another 15min.

Which I'm okay with, because I'd rather be early than late!

Hmmm....

So last night was fun!

Got to hang out with two of my best friends.

We watched a stupid scary movie.

YET AGAIN.

Haha! But I love it!

I work until close tonight...so it's going to be a long day!

But at least I get to do something other than monkeys for a change.

I've become very addicted to postsecret!

I'm totally buying all three of the books sooooooon.

I cry almost every time I read them.

I want to send one in and see if I ever see it again.

It kinds looks fun.

Haha.

OKAY.

Well...Imma go and get some water..then drive reeeally slow to work.

:]

BYE.

"Wherever you are, whenever it's right.
You'll come out of nowhere and into my life."

I have a new favorite song. It's called "Haven't met you yet" by Michael Buble.
The thing I love about this song is that it's pretty much exactly how
I've been feeling lately.
In a nutshell.
The line above is my favorite in the whole song
Because it is something that I am always
telling myself.
Because I know...that there IS someone out there for me.
It's only a matter of time.
:]

((Now on to other matters))

I'm not quite sure why I put the this^^picture on here.
It's just a cool picture to me, I guess.
Anywho.
So I think I've figured it out!
The reason I've been so unmotivated to do anything that has to do with art
is because I'm really not very excited about where I am going with it?
If that makes sense?

My plan was/is to go to ipfw and get a fine arts degree.

That's all good and fine and whatever...
But I guess most of me is just not suuuper excited.
I don't know why I'm not.

I guess I just want to know what else is out there.
Which brings me to my point (kind of?)
I've been looking into this Art institute in Chicago.
It looks absolutley amazing!!
I would LOVE to go there.
But I'm JUST looking into it..
It's not a for sure thing by any means.
And if it doesn't end up working out...
I'll be completely happy going to ipfw.
There is nothing wrong with that school.

In fact I really like the art program!
And if I do end up going there,
it will for sure grow on me.

But I have a strong feeling...deep down
That I am meant to go somewhere else.
I don't know where.
But somewhere.
Maybe not right when I graduate..
Maybe a few years later..
But either way,
I'm going somewhere.

What's on your mind?....

......Oh that question seems to always be staring me right in the face. Every time I turn on my computer, click on my little Mozilla icon and log into facebook it just seems to hit me like a ton of bricks. It is such a simple question, or at least it should be. But why is it that I have the hardest time answering it? Is it possibly because I have a hard time letting people deep into my every thought? Yes, I know you don't have to give a deep answer to this question every day, but why answer it if you aren't going to answer honestly. And more often than not I have a deep answer at heart, just waiting to get out. Again, it doesn't always have to be deep...but isn't that kind of the point? I mean, that is why people get things like facebook, myspace, twitter etc. They get them to share their thoughts, feelings, problems and joys. For most people it is much easier to post a status or blog about your inner most thoughts instead of telling it to someone's face. But I actually find it to be opposite in my case. I would rather talk to someone face to face. I, on the other hand, become more open when I can look into someone's eyes. I can tell how much or how little I want to share and what I want to share with that person. But when you post things online you are just throwing it out there, for anyone and everyone to read. Not knowing who is reading and what they are thinking, scares me. Not being able to read their eyes and body language seems a little odd to me. I've always wanted to keep a journal of some sort..but I've never really been good at it. So why should blogging be any different? I don't know. But I really appreciate it when people share their feelings and tell what they are thinking so openly. So I am trying to do the same. I hope I get better at it, because it really does make me feel better. To just babble on about nothing and not worry about anyone getting annoyed or bored, because if they are, all they have to do is not read. Haha.
So what am I getting at with all this blabbing about status's and such? Honestly, I'm not quite sure. I think maybe in some kind of hidden way I was trying to let out my thought of the day(total fail, btw). Hmmm... okay well it's time for me to get my laundry out of the dryer. Put them away and hopefully get some sleep(not likely but it's whatever) Goodnight, dear friends. :]

Why?

Uuugh.
Today started off really great! Finally got to work(it was super fun, btw). Then I went to Naked Clay Cafe! That was amazing! Loved that. But as the day went on...it got very blah. And now I'm all in this depressed mood and just eeeeh. There is just constantly one big thing on my mind right now and its freakin annoying. But on top of that I have 106 other things that are just ;ALKDSFa;dsklfj. I won't be in this mood tomorrow..I know it's just tonight..but all I want to do it sleep. Which by the way I haven't in like 4 nights. I get maaaybe 2 hours of sleep..if that. I don't know why...stress maybe? I don't want to deal with the future. It really freaks me out when I think about the next year of my life... so instead of thinking.. I've been glitter gluing my work name tag and the pad lock for my locker. It's totally baller! ..I hate feeling like this because then I feel like I'm bringing everyone else down. And that is not what I want, at all! (my stomach hurts). Lately I've been feeling way to closed in. I need to branch out..come out of my box and meet knew people..do knew things! Maybe that will help make me feel better..idk. I have goals for myself when it comes to getting out. Out of my box, my comfort zone, the norm. And believe me..I will achieve these goals. I wish I was one of those people that didn't eat anything when they are depressed instead of eating the entire kitchen. Haha then maybe my losing weight goal would actually happen. ..I think another thing that is really bothering me lately is that I miss people..I hate missing people and there are just so many people that I really miss. It makes me sad..but that's life..it's whatever I guess. I need to start drinking more water during the day. My back really hurts, I wish I had a heating pad that didn't sound like it was about to explode every time you plug it in. Haha. This is just a blog about nothing..I'm sorry. I only have a few things left to do in school for this year! Wahoo! Then it's summer..YAY! ...You know what I really need?! I hobby. I think I need a hobby. I wish I had something that was just a side passion. Something that you won't do as a career or anything but it's something that you like and that's fun. Something like a sport(hahahaa me?!) Theater(nah. eh.. idk. maybe?) Cooking(pshh). I can't think of anything. :(

So here I sit, in my room..blogging my little heart out. But to completely honest..I'm not. There are so many things I wish I could write on this thing that I have just bottled up inside..but I can't. I mean..it's not like the feelings I have are mean or bad or anything! (because they aren't!) It's just stuff that would cause to much discussion... discussion that I never asked for and really don't want. So instead of saying what is actually in my head I will babble on about nothing..hoping that in doing so, something of substance will slip out. ...well..it was worth a shot. Maybe next time?

I am a peacock.....

....So what does this mean? Allow me to explain.. A few days ago I had one of my training days for my job at the zoo. In this particular training day we learned about shop lifters and how to deal with such people and we also learned what animal we are. We took a personality test without knowing what animals there were and without knowing what they mean. The reason we did this was so we know how to talk to customers and know what animal they are( it got more in depth..but I won't give you the long version haha because it lasted about 2 hours) But anyway.. you could either be a Panther (someone who is kind of cold..very straight forward and doesn't like to waste time). A dolphin( someone who is quiet, soft spoken, hates being yelled at and is a peace maker). An owl(someone who is very analytical and pays attention to every detail..is also quiet but can be loud when it needs to be). Or a peacock(someone who is very out going, can talk to anyone, loves hearing/telling every detail of stories and loves to talk. someone who attracts people). I was like 90% Peacock 10% Owl. I know that this simple little test was just for work..but it really got me thinking... I'm not sure why. I'm so happy that I got peacock.. I really do think this test is very accurate. I could really see that everyone else who took it was truly like their animal characteristics! It would be interesting to see how many people it really works on. But now..every time I talk to someone I am analyzing them. haha! Trying to see if I can tell which animal they are. But one thing is for sure...I figured out..I don't often get along with Panthers. I mean I'm sure I get along with some...but for the most part..I don't and that's okay! That's how life works.. I'm sure most dolphins probably get annoyed with Peacocks because we're loud. Haha so it's all good..it was just an observation! ..On a whole other note..MY ROOM IS DOOOONE! Yay!! I'm in love with it now..Its completely amazing! I can't get enough of it. Hahaha. ..Subject change.. I've decided that I'm gonna really try and go with the flow of life. Yes..I know that is going to be hard for me..but I really think that is what I need to do. Just live life. Be happy. Go day by day without worrying to much about tomorrow! I'm seriously going to try. It is my summer goal! Hah. Please be a good friend and help me do this. I don't know how much you can help..but idk..try. ;]
OKAYBYE.

Tyler from Menards

I LOVE Menards. Juuust saying..it is my new favorite place to shop. ;] ...annywhay...I ORDERED NEW CARPET. Finally!! Oh my goodness I can not wait! my room is painted..im just in the middle of doing a few touch ups here and there. Tomorrow we are getting the other dresser and ed is putting my closet together soooon! :) YAY!! ..Today was such a good day. I went to my first day of training at the zoo..it was basically just 3 hours of paper work.(yuck) But it wasn't bad! I start my real training Monday and the zoo opens Saturday! wooot! I work Sat. & Sun. and for those two days..I'm the monkey girl. Haha..I stand at the exit with a giant tree of monkeys..yelling "$5 monkeys! Get your monkeys here!!" Haaha! My manager said she thinks I'd would be good at that. Lol. But that's not all I'd be doing every time I work. I will work in different areas and such. But I'm so excited! Haha. ....Okay well...sorry it's such a short post..but I need to keep painting! ...Talk2UL8er! :]

Home Alone.

Earlier Alexander and I went to goodwill (I got me some preetty amazing/completely ugly T-shirts Yay) then to walmart to get painting supplies. Then we came home...and my entire family=Alex left. Baseball game and dinner. I stayed home to avoid the sun haha! Watched someone of the most awkward people in the world try and sing then fell asleep. I was woken up by text message and NOW I'm awake and home alone...and scared. =\ It's dark out and I think someone is down stairs waiting to murder me. So since this is my last night on earth..I thought I'd blog. Hahaa! I'm so thirsty but waaay to scared to leave my room. I even locked the door! Lol I'm such a big baby.
..uugh. Oh well. When Alex gets home we're going to SPACKLE!! :D can't wait! And since I just slept till nine..I shouldn't have any trouble staying up late. Okay well this was a pointless blog. BYE. :]

Spackle. Spackle. Spackle.

Hellooo world!
Hmm.. I just got done dancing around my living room for half an hour. (thats the only exercise I ever get. Ha) Now...I'm sitting on the floor..voting for the Alex's and watching hsm3 :] ..I've been avoiding doing math (with a little help from facebook) UGH. But I should probably start working on that sometime soon here. ..Eh. Tomorrow sounds good. Haha. I'm feeling much better about my portfolio..thanks to Mr. Pancner. He gave me a little pep talk this morning in class and some things he said really opened my eyes. I need to stop over-thinking and over analyzing every little thing. My drawings/paintings will turn out a lot better if I chill out. Today was a really good day! I went to art. Came home and had a birthday bash for my midget Camden. Then Tyshia(my new friend) and I went out to eat and shopping! Yay! Tomorrow should be a very lovely day as well.. Meeting with Ivy tech/IPFW in the morning(yuck) Then Alexander and I are gonna go shopping, get paint and then spackle my room. I'm so excited because we are painting my room Friday! FINALLY. Then I should be getting carpet soon after! Sooooo... yeah. That's pretty much my next few days..I'll be talkin' to you later!
Love ya,
Kirstin :]

Party balls, Chuck-E-Cheese and Baseball.

Wooow. It has most certainly been quite a week. Alexander and I had to watch the kids for 3 whole days..and boy oh boy did that take A LOT out of me. ..It wasn't really hard..they were very good for us. It was just looong. We were the coolest babysitters, EVER. We took them to his store and let each of them get a party ball and fill it with candy. Then we took them to Chuck-E-Cheese ..and Sonic. Then to the new parkview park (which is completely amazing btw. It is the PERFECT park for me because there is NO grass/dirt((which is perfect for my hate of touching nature)) ...idk..you just have to see it.) We also made brownies and they had popcorn and watched a movie one night. And Tordi got to hang out with us...which was fun because I never get to see him and I missed him :] It was actually kind of fun babysitting...but ohmygoodness...I'm sooo tired. I'm so going to bed right after I finish this.
Tonight I went to Cooper's baseball game..it was fun! I usually like going..if the weather is good. I mean if its to hot/cold I won't go..but I like cheering and supporting him :] I'm such a good sister. Haha. ...Oh! Saturday is the day I start my job training at the zoo!! Woot! I'm a tiny bit nervous though, but I'm sure once I know how it all works I'll be fine. I can't wait though, I'm seriously saving my money this summer...I NEED A CAR. No joke. Imma save save save. Speaking of which..I made a goals list today and taped it to my dresser... here is what is on it sooo far...
(in no particular order) 1. Pass my stuuuupid math class. 2. Get in shape. 3. Change carpet/paint room. 4. Work on portfolio hardcore. 5. Save for/get car. 6. Study/pass ACT's/SAT's. 7. Let these stupid bangs grow out (which won't take long..my hair grows fast) 8. Get tooons of new clothes. And so far that's it.. I will add to this list as needed. But for now that is all I have. ...Aw I just looked at my calender.. my little Cammy's 7th birthday is this Wednesday! I can't believe he is going to be 7! That's so weird. It makes me feel old...hahaa.
Oookay well I am falling asleep as I type so I should probably go to bed.
<3kirstin

Art. Math and Love.

Ugh. Okay where do I start? Lets see.... I guess I'll just ramble (sorry, it might get confusing).
ART. So working on my portfolio has been sucking. I feel very blah about everything I do and I end up hating all of it. I can't seem to express myself the way that I want to and its been frustrating me. Gaah. Why is it SO hard for me to come up with original idea?! I mean I want to be an artist for goodness sake. I should at least be able to come up with something on my own. But nooo. I have very little confidence in myself and my work, I don't know what to do anymore. Is this really what I want to do with my life? YES. I know it is. Its the only thing I've ever loved. I can't see myself doing anything different. But how can I feel so strongly about this and not convey it on canvas or paper?!
MATH. I worst four letter word in the whole freakin world. This stupid math class it making me feel so stupid, I know I'm not though. I'm failing and my teacher doesn't seem to want to help. I will probably end up taking this class again. (okay, whatever..I'll do that) It just makes me mad that I am paying to take this and all he says to me is "hope you pass, there is nothing I can do for you". Really?! Like what is that?! I don't even know. I have a few more weeks to get my grade up...I need to study study study for the final and pray to God that I can pass this class. Uuuugh.
LOVE. Ugh, okay..I am not one to sit around saying "I need a boyfriend" Or " I'm so jealous..why can't I have that" ...and don't get me wrong...I am truly very happy! ...But seriously. Its getting pretty old going on facebook and see all the stupid little hearts. I know I'm only saying that because I am alone. And I know that..and I also know that when it/if it does happen to me I will LOVE seeing that little heart on facebook for everyone to see. But until then...UGH. py for every single one of those people...most of whom really deserve it and I really am happy for them. But I just can't help but think.......why not me? I'm not pathetic or anything...I won't just go out with a guy because I feel like I need a boyfriend (so don't think that) It would just be nice to have someone to talk to. Someone who calls me beautiful. Someone to hold my hand. Someone who wants to hear what I have to say. Someone who isn't afraid of my family and its past. Someone who has God in their life. Someone to text me good morning and night. Someone to kiss and cuddle with. But I don't just want this for me, I have SO much love that I would be so happy to give to someone else. I want to make some guy feel special and show that I care. hmmmm....It just gets hard being lonely sometimes. But I know(hope) my day will come soon. I know that I deserve an incredible guy. Someone who will treat me right, even when I'm grumpy or even when my family has their crazy days. I just pray that God sends me that guy, and when he does..I will be the happiest girl on the planet. :] ...but until then..I'll keep praying. (Okay...girl moment over)

Wow...that actually helped a little bit...

*nothing but smiles*

Ah YAY!!! I got a job!! FINALLY! Woo. :D I will be working at the zoo gift shop! Yeah..it's only until Oct. Buuut this means I can save up all summer for a car! Suhweet. So that's one thing to make me smile. I also have pretty much decided that I am going to go to IPFW (at least for two years). So now I have a goal there. Another thing that has been on my mind a lot lately is working out..and I've decided that I am going to work my freaking (huge) butt off over the month of April to get into shape.. I'm also going to TRY and only have one pop a week. (( I am not giving up candy though...haha...just going to try and eat less of it..at least until I feel that I have reached my goal)) So good luck to me. We'll see how that goes! But I am determined and I feel good about ALL of these decisions :]

I also need work hardcore on my reading list this summer and study A LOT for the SAT's/ACT's. Those are my two biggest goals for school this summer and I AM going to accomplish them. Just you wait and see! Another big goal of mine is to work on my portfolio...still working on the confidence for that one...but I am SO CLOSE to being there!! Almost.

But at this very moment I am sick :( and I've been in bed all day.. so hopefully I'll feel better tomorrow so I can go to art and my brother's baseball game. ..I'm not feeling the greatest so I think I'm gonna try and sleep some more. Blog later..

Love,

Kirstin

Pro. Con. List.

IPFW? or BALL STATE? Which one, which one. Uuuugh. Right now I'm leaning more towards IPFW because I can go there for 2 years..then transfer over to st. Francis!(If I so choose) But we'll see.
I still have soo much to do...
ACTs & SATs, get my book list up, take proctor exam again, sign up for classes at ivy that will go towards my degree in art. Graduate high school. Get my portfolio together. Fill out SO many forms for scholarships. a;lsdksadlkjfjr;lajdfafjalskdjf. Then little things like...where would I live? At home. In a dorm. An apartment with a roommate? It really depends on the school I guess. I need to work this out like SOON because I hate feeling like this, like I don't know what is going to happen (at least when it come to this subject). I need to get this under control. But I know that where ever I end up going that will be my choice and it really does help me through the week until we don't have it for a few weeks and I am bible-study-lesmost likely the best thing for me. I just need to pray about it and go where ever God leads me.

In other news..I had a super fun time last night with my friends! I got to see a friend that I don't get to see very often, so that was nice! Then I had a girls night with my good friend Lindsay! Woo. That was much needed! :) ..I have my second job interview for the zoo tomorrow morning (eeek) I'm so nervous. I'll let you know how it goes. Then hanging out with friends again! Yay. ...And I hope we have bible study Sunday night.. I really need that.... Hmm..what else is going on...Eh. Nothing to major at the moment. But since this is MY life..that means that won't last very long. Ha.

Love ya!
Kirstin

Fun+Tired!

I had quite the weekend!! It was actually a very fuuun weekend at that! I'm sooo tired though. I went and had a girls day with Karina..we went to the mall and then bought candy..came home and watched movies all night! So that was fun. Then I went clothes shopping! YAY! I love new clothes..I'm so excited because I got two vuury cute dresses :)
Then I got to go with Bekka to see Joseph at the Civic then to DQ! So that was fun..then I helped my mom shop for clothes and a new purse. And today was church..had somethings to do around town..then went to pulse! So I'm extremely tired now. I can't wait for art tomorrow though, because I get to paint Bekka's last painting!! =]
Busy week ahead of me..but hopefully it will be a good week. And hopefully I get to hang out with some friends who I don't see as much as I would like too! 'Oookay..well I am SO tired and I must start getting ready for bed..so I shall blog sometime this week :]
Buh-bye!

THE LIST.

Here is the list. This list consists of a few things on my mind...

1. I really need to start working out. I want to lose some weight and feel more comfortable in my own skin...but I am soooo unmotivated because I HATE exercise, to the max. I think I need a workout buddy? I don't know..

2. Facebook is really annoying. It gets more and more annoying every day. There are just some people on fb whose status's drive me insane(so I hide them) but a few here and there tend to work their annoying way into my news feed. Goodness..I need to take a facebook break.

3. I've been in contact with my Dad lately! He's been trying really hard to help me out with something and even if things don't work out..I really do appreciate all that he has been doing! :)
(fingers crossed that things do work out though)

4. Its been hitting me more and more lately how much this summer is going to mean to me. Its the summer before my best friends leave for Cali. I am SO excited for them though! And I hope they have an amazing time and love it so much...but I know its going to be hard for me when they are gone..so I need to take advantage of this summer as much as possible. But I will have my few other best friends here who will be in the same boat as me...so I won't be alone! ...I.LOVE.MY.BESTIES. :]

5. COLLEGE. Goodness...this is so annoying. I know that money is going to be a huge issue when it comes to going to the school I really want to..and I've been stressin that for a few days now. I need to get my art portfolio started (and I think the reason I've been so hesitant to start is because I'm not very confident in my stuff yet, but I'm getting there) So I have that on my mind..then there is the whole money thing.UGH. I just need to breath and take it one day at a time.

6. JOB. I went to a job fair thing at the zoo a few days ago and I got asked to come back for a second interview(WAHOOO) Trying not to get my hopes up to much, but I reeeeallly need this to work out! Fingers crossed!

7. Should I clean my room tonight? Or tomorrow?

8. I wish I had some fingernail polish remover.

9. The Duggar's are bizarre to me.

10. I wonder if anyone really reads my blog?? Hahaha..probably not. ;]

...PSYCH.....

I love Psych. Its just sooo funny! But I usually watch it with Cooper, who is away at a sports endeavor. I kinda miss him! =\ ANYwhay.. I think you should go check out the H&K photo shoot pictures on facebook. :) They are awesome. I love taking pictures... OH! I'm getting my hair cut tomorrow (FINALLY) I can't wait. It is in serious need of a trimming because its SO unmanageably long. I hear the sweet sound of birds tweeting outside my window! I looove it. Okaay..well..that's all I feel like typing right now..I might add more later tonight, or I might not. We shall see. ;)